I've been debating whether or not to post this for the past few days and finally decided that if was better to post than not to.
I'm sure some or all of you have noticed that my blogging is, at best, sporadic. I have weeks where I have 3 posts and then I have periods of time when I don't blog for weeks at a time. I'm trying to get better about regular posting, but I'd like to talk a bit about why my posting is so sporadic. If you don't want to know, then just skip this post. If you do, then read on.
I'd like to think that maybe I am not the only blogger who has these problems, and maybe by talking about them I can put someone else at ease even just a little bit.
I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder back in middle school, and have suffered from and struggled with it ever since. Recently I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia and PTSD as well. I have been struggling with all of them lately. I always have some trouble, but since I moved last month it has been exponentially more difficult.
When I moved I had a small hoard of polish to still swatch and review. I had sewing to do for Instagram contest prizes and for orders I had taken before I found out I had to move (the move was VERY sudden.) I had so much to do that when I was finally in my new apartment I was overwhelmed. Not only did I have a lot of work to do, but my supplies were all packed away in boxes, I couldnt find anything, and my space was so different.
I underestimated how much the move would effect me. I underestimated how much being in a different space would effect my anxiety and my ability to do simple tasks like change my polish. I'm still getting used to it. I've managed to get some things swatched and reviewed, but what once would take me a few hours now takes days. I know this may sound like excuses or complaining to some of you, but it is far from that. It is just a little glimse into my world.
Every day things get a tiny bit better and more comfortable in my new space and this weekend I was even able to get some sewing done and some swatches photographed. I've started making promises to myself about posting here more often and I hope to be posting at least once a week to start as soon as possibe. So if I disappear for a while, please know that it is not forever. Please know that it is this nail community that gives me strength. it is the support of all you wonderful women that keeps me coming back. I may disappear for a little while, but I will always come back.
Anyways... maybe some of you are wondering why I posted this, and maybe some of you don't care, but I needed to get this off my chest. Who knows, maybe doing so will make me feel a little better, maybe it won't, but at least I know I tried.
If anyone wants to or needs to get in touch with me while I'm gone you're always welcome to leave a message here, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org or Kik me at stormandstars. I may take a bit to answer, but I will answer eventually.
Thanks again for all your support, and I promise I will be back as soon as I can handle it.